I blogged about having a positive attitude when trying to quit drinking or using but most people don’t realize that you can still have alcohol sobriety depression hit you all the while so let’s talk about it for a bit
A little personal letter
Recently, I have been plagued with a disease that even though I have been talking about having a positive attitude there are some things that cannot be avoided.
With my latest setback in life would be something named Trigeminal Neuralgia and with it comes the taking a medicine that can cause depression.
So, even though I have still some positive attitude I am still stuck with a bit of depression and top of all that, I got my shakes back and almost to the point of which I was shaking when going through my detoxing from alcohol.
With the shakes hitting me and the slight depression hitting me from the meds it can be difficult to keep that positive attitude.
Today I was chatting with a friend of mine about trying to come up with something that I am passionate about so I can blog about and make it into something I can profit from but, when asked what I was passionate about, my answer was that I wasn’t sure anymore what I am passionate about.
Well, that’s depression and it feels about the same as I was when I was about to quit drinking and trying to climb out of that hole can be just as difficult as climbing out of that alcohol sobriety depression.
Alcohol Sobriety Depression
Yes, it happens. Maybe not for everyone but it did for me and now I am going through the same but different all at the same time but, depression is depression no matter what it is caused by and can have some detrimental effects.
As for me, I just can’t find pleasure in anything I do any longer.
I used to enjoy fishing, golfing, working on vehicles, hobbies and things of the like but when I quit, all that disappeared.
And now taking this medication it feels the same as it did right before I quit drinking and in the first few months of my alcohol sobriety.
But, somewhere deep inside of me, I still have that positive attitude and even though the depression is pulling me down, it is a struggle.
On top of all of this, I am about to start another job, one of which I really don’t want to do but have to only because living on the streets is not an option in my head.
I felt the same way when I went back to work after I took of a month to get myself clean and sober.
I just have to find what I had deep down inside of me to pull myself up and get it done. It is something that that we will all feel at sometime during our alcohol sobriety or when trying to clean from whatever drug you were hooked on.
So, with this being said, the depression is there, the shakes are back but, with that positive attitude that I have been talking about… I know I will get through this once again.
One Day At A Time
