So, yeah… My last post may have had a few wondering if I was going to fall off or not, I can say delightfully that I have not touched the stuff!
I am getting past it everyday.
Getting past the bump in the road
It took me a bit to finally get past that trigger of losing a significant one. I lost the one who I thought was going to be the one.
Well, she is still a very good friend and on that note, I am trying to pick up the pieces to my life once again.
It’s not easy to get by in life everyday when you are facing some type of depression and battling an issue in your life.
It almost put me to the point of buying that Icehouse and just slamming it down but that is not what happened and will not either.
How do I get past it everyday is with good and happy thoughts. Keep busy with work and focus myself on other things.
So I call it a bump in the road well, it is sort of or it could be that every alcoholic’s nightmare is to relapse.
Getting past it everyday
It is not an easy road with other issues in life everyday but, I have to tell myself that I am the only one who can battle this infliction.
I am responsible for my own action and only I can blame myself.
Failure is not an option correct? I think so, so everyday is a new day and I just have to keep my head on straight and all should fall into place.
All the other stuff in my head at the time will either fall into place as well or just stay all messy in my head for one of those rainy days.
In this post I have talked about my triggers and the fear of relapse. These are like the worst things that we have to endure in our sobriety but there it is.
We just need to move on and look around us and know that the world is continuing on while it is in our heads where the problem or issues lays.
This is how I have been getting past the bump in the road everyday. Eat, sleep, wake up, get to work, work, drive home, shower, eat and repeat.
Keeping that busy from 4:30 am to at least 7 pm ish keeps those thoughts that could become an issue at bay.
By the time I get home, I’m too tired to think about many things.
I am still struggling with a bit of depression but I believe that will also find the pieces fall into place so I can get past these problems that I have had these last few weeks.
Some things are getting easier yet other are getting worst.
I’ll just have to find out what it is going to take to get me back to the way I was before.
Alcoholism is much easier to battle with very few problems.